Sex Drunks

15. Sex drunk dad

Jonathan is back with a newborn, basically no sleep, and a crash course in how fast fatherhood exposes every crack in recovery. He and Pasha talk through late-night resentment, mental obsession, the "signals" that say something needs attention, and why caring for a baby can feel like practicing the actions of love on repeat—plus frozen grapes, Sprite Cherry Lime Zero, and a few brutally honest laughs. Somewhere between the meltdowns and the prayers, Jonathan lands on a pretty wild realization about how God might love him too.

14. Is there a wrong way to work the steps?

Pasha nearly loses it when his grand-sponsee pulls out Step Into Action instead of the Big Book—and has to pray his way out of saying something he'd regret. From there, the guys get into whether outside resources like Step Into Action are helpful or harmful, why "clear-cut directions" aren't always so clear, and what step one actually requires before anything else clicks. Jonathan drops that he used to mumble "I'm a sexaholic" under his breath without really meaning it, and Pasha lands on the most annoyingly honest realization: there might not be a wrong way to do this.

13. Sex is not my only problem

Jonathan and Pasha dive into codependency—what it actually is, why it's rooted in selfishness, and why it might be the next frontier for both of them. Jonathan shares a tense family conversation over the holidays that finally pushed him toward making his amends, and Pasha recounts one of his most complicated ninth step experiences that still catches him off guard years later.

12. Real men don't cry

Pasha opens up about a rough week battling new compulsions — including an endless scroll through a used clothing app — while Jonathan shares what it was like to go from feeling nothing to finally crying at a kids' Christmas movie. They dig into the stigma around medication in recovery, what depression actually feels like, and why the things you don't want to share are usually exactly what you need to say.

11. God is bigger than the Big Book

Jonathan admits he's been pushing his wife away by constantly criticizing her approach to recovery—and realizes he's living proof of what not to do. Pasha wrestles with a Russian big book study that challenges everything he thought he knew. Together they explore what it means to hold strong opinions loosely, and why "I don't know" might be the most honest thing a sexaholic can say.

10. Recovery in marriage

Ned and Jeanette open up about navigating 25+ years of marriage through sex addiction recovery—from the "first year is awful, second year is worse" reality to learning that full disclosure might not mean what you think it does. They dig into the tricky dance of honesty without brutality, the spidey senses Essanons develop, and why one day at a time applies to staying married too.

9. Why?

Jonathan calls up an old timer to ask why he says "why isn't a spiritual question"—then consults his other old timer, ChatGPT (who has about two weeks of sobriety). Pasha shares his step two experience in rehab, how telling God he was angry changed everything, and the freedom of saying "I don't care why—I just don't want to die." Plus: why your internet filters might just be training wheels, and what happens when you surrender your career to God while lying on your dog's bed.

8. I'm not the problem – you are!

Jonathan and Pasha get deep on their recent fifth step experiences—from realizing "whenever I'm disturbed, the problem is me" to discovering you can't just knowledge your way out of character defects. Plus: retreat awkwardness, family mediation gone right, and why Doritos are basically lust.

7. 12 step or therapy?

Jonathan starts using AI as a "sponsor" and goes down a rabbit hole asking ChatGPT the big questions: What's the difference between a therapy share and a 12-step share? Which one actually creates lasting change? And what about marriage—counseling or both partners working their own programs? The AI drops some surprisingly solid wisdom, and the guys unpack it with their own experience. Plus, Pasha uses Claude to handle a noisy neighbor situation (spoiler: it was actually God), and Jonathan makes amends to some confused construction workers. Real talk about why tools without transformation just polish dysfunction.

6. Are we recovered or recovering?

  Recovered or recovering? The debate is on! Jonathan drops a controversial  bomb by saying "recovered sexaholic" at Tuesday night's meeting, and  Pasha's here to unpack what sparked the shift. After two years of going  with the flow, Jonathan discovered the White Rhino meetings and their Big  Book approach—and suddenly "recovered" just made sense. It's not about  being cured forever; it's about having hope TODAY. Plus, they dive into  business meetings, playing God, and why Pasha's sponsor told him to shut  up (spoiler: it actually helped).